Father's Day is Sunday and with it come many blogs about "Father's Day Gift Guides", but I'm taking a different approach.
My brothers and I are going on 5 years without our dad, so Father's Day isn't really celebrated with us anymore. We've put it on the back burner and haven't
looked back.
As I thought about what my blog could be about pertaining Father's Day, it came to me. A letter to my teenage self on all the things I wish I would have known before he died. It was hard to reminisce on this stuff to say the least, but it's a way to honor my dad on yet another Father's Day spent without him.
Teenage girls, if your dad is still well and very much alive listen up!
Dear teenage me:
Watch your words. I understand hormones are raging. You're 14 and think you know everything. Every time he says "No", you "hate him." He's looking out for you. Someday you'll understand.
Dear teenage me:
When he hugged you and said "I love you", you pulled away, not saying it back. You thought you were too old for dad's hugs. He responded with, "one day I won't be here and you'll wish I was." Wow, he was right.
Dear teenage me:
Tell him thank you every chance you get. After all, he has always been there like a dad should be. Providing and making sure food was on the table every night.
Dear teenage me:
You're 15 now and a boyfriend seems more important than he does. I'm begging you to please break up with this guy and spend all the time in the world with your dad. Boys can wait. Unfortunately time spent with your dad can't..
Dear teenage me:
You're 16. Through tears I ask you to please answer his call. He leaves a voicemail, because you in fact did not answer. You were probably mad about some crazy adolescent thing.
P.S. you will hold onto to that voicemail for the rest of your life.
Dear teenage me:
The last night you see him.... Hug him tight. Don't let go. I'm screaming to you from the top of my lungs to please, please hold onto him for as long as you possibly can. Tell him you love him over and over. Even if he is wondering why you sound like a broken record. He doesn't know why, but I do...
Dear teenage me:
Do not, under any circumstances hang the phone up on him!!! You did.. There you go again with that awful teenage attitude of yours. You think you know everything. If you did, you would heed my warning.
Dear teenage me:
It's the night of July 15th 2013 and you're in your room watching a movie. You are just a 16 year old teenager without a care in the world. Still a child. I don't know how to tell you this. He's already gone...
Dear teenage me:
I'm not going to sugar coat anything. The weeks following will be really, really tough for you and your family. Stay strong. God will see you through this trial.
For my dad. Happy Father's Day ❤